| I know, I keep moving blogs and making new accounts.
I know, I moved to blogspot from xanga.
I know, that means I shouldn't be using this xanga anymore.
I know, I'm not even a moderator anymore so that kinda defeats the purpose of calling this "angrymod_blog".
It's obvious that I can't even post my own thoughts on my Blogspot without some backlash. I still believe I'm entitled to write whatever shit I want about people if it's true.. but some others don't see it that way. And honestly, don't we all like having a blog of some sort where we can REALLY express ourselves while knowing people will have immense difficulty tracking this down? I guess my Blogspot should be for my comical thoughts and casual posts, since it's become heavily followed by several friends. I don't mind them following it, but I have a lot of trouble trusting anyone now. Not to mention I don't want anyone to assume I'm THAT depressing and angry when they come across my Blogspot entries. So I guess I'll just resume using this xanga. I could just make another one, but I don't wanna re-add people, nor have them re-add me (I probably will make another one when I'm feeling more optimistic.)
But what can I say? It's been a depressing summer, and the fall season hasn't exactly been really positive. I just dropped another course because I couldn't handle the content. Short TWO credits now. I'm really disappointed in myself and it's been pretty frustrating that I haven't been able to focus as well as I would've thought I would in second year of university. Ultimately, it's just everyone and everything around me that's wrong.
Even these current friends I consider myself "close with" have betrayed me in some way, big and small. I don't even know why I keep falling for girls who just fall for other guys below my level. Yes, I do think of myself higher than a lot of guys, but that's because I'm in university, getting work done, and well-mannered (for the most part anyway). Why do I like such airheads who just wanna be sweet talked? There are girls who are interested in me, but they're literally just sluts and/or self-absorbed. Funny, it's actually those girls who keep asking "Why are you still single?" A few close friends tell me to just stop TRYING to find a girl and just wait for things come my way. Well I'm sorry for just wanting some comfort from someone who would actually be there for me like I would for them. Sorry if it sounds selfish, but that's how I feel. I don't have any warm, fuzzy, loving bond with my family members, so I just need to reach out for someone, you know?
People who I used to trust are cut out of my life when they went over the line. I used to be defensive for these individuals, but now I have a full understanding of who they really are. The shit talking was right along. Those cut individuals really are fake, ignorant, annoying, and bitchy whores. Such a mistake always trying to see their positive characteristics, considering the fact that they never saw the positives about me as their friend. I'm not stupid, I've heard the horrible things said about me. Why call me a good-hearted person when my intentions are always questioned?
What a waste of time. Betrayal at its finest worst, bitches.
Maybe solitude is actually better after all...
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| Moved to http://yamaskatchi.blogspot.com/
Yeah, I know. I changed it again. Because Hien didn't like the URL of the other one -_-
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| Closed down. No longer moderating. Possible making a new site, check around.
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| ... I quit moderating, for those who haven't noticed.
Defeats the purpose of having "angrymod" in the blog name though. Damn it!
Give me some time though, I might come along with a new username for a different account 
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